Now, the 31-year-old is finally addressing her much-publicized split thanks to her upcoming Netflix documentary Gaga: Five Foot Two. "It doesn't mean I don't have some things up my sleeve". "I know that she wanted me to because it's something that should be included in the film", Moukarbel said. We get to see amusing Gaga - punching back at Madonna ("If I had kept that gap [that she had in her high school yearbook photo] I'd have had even more problems with Madonna"), pondering her future ("I want to become an old rock star lady"). Sometimes the pain is so brutal that Gaga cries, though she makes sure to express her appreciation for her doctors and the team around her. At the same time, by confessing her own traumas, she has inspired countless marginalized young people to manifest their gender, sexuality and identity. However, the two talked about the fact that others are going through similar pain and that they needed to show the reality of it on film. "There's nothing you can do, beyond filming", he said. "It's hard", she said, "but it's liberating too". "Telling me you think I'm a piece of s-t through the media?" Throughout the film, the singer was seen undergoing a handful of treatments to help ease muscle spasms, which cause her to feel pain on the entire right side of her body. From there, the film, which premiered at the Toronto International Film Festival on Friday, September 8, trails the pop star in the emotional year leading up to the release of her most recent album, Joanne.
But the physical demands of constant performances and her pursuit of the highest standards night after night take their toll.
There's also some not-so-fun stuff, such as watching how Gaga copes with chronic pain and her breakup with former fiancé Taylor Kinney. "Me and Taylor are fighting, so that sucks", she admits while cooking in her kitchen. My pain does me no good unless I transform it into something that is. "I sold 10 million [records] and lost Matt".